Even Slander of the Law Contains Enlightenment

1.Written 8/5/10, middle of the night, early morning, while doing ox-tiger gongyo: This is very important, a key change in my being: While I chant, I feel my slander of the Law doing intense battle with my enlightened self, which, me so immersed in the slander, feels like it(my enlightened self i)'s someone else outside myself. And at that moment, I feel the enlightened aspect of even my intense slander, and then I am calmed somewhat—slightly. (This was added 8/5 later that day in the afternoon:) And that cause plus the realization has morphed into a great change and I feel good at work and totally good about everything I am doing. It's not only ordinary hell that contains Buddhahood. It is even the worst hell—slander of the Law itself—that contains the best Buddhahood—the Buddhahood of Nam-myoho-renge-kyo. But you'll never understand this unless you chant through your slander without trying to suppress it.